I hesitate to even post an update this week because I am annoyed by everything and everyone. I’m even shutting comments off for this post because if you piss me off, I might react unfavorably, like launch this pair of scissors through the monitor. Or your face.
This is the first week when I’ve felt my emotional meltdowns were mostly due to hormones. All of the prior ones? Totally justified by the situation at hand. This week I’m crying for no reason or suddenly finding myself mid-panic attack. Granted, the things I am panicking about are all reasonable things to panic about (childcare for one) but the attacks happen at very inopportune times.
I’ve also realized that I really need to start thinking about childcare, since I’m not going to be able to be a SAHM. Cue panic attacks about having to leave my baby after two months to go back to work.
Tomorrow I spend ten hours on the road traveling downstate. Not looking forward to having to stop and pee every two hours, but I am looking forward to spending a bunch of days wit`h family and friends and just disconnecting from everything for awhile. (By disconnecting I also mean email and facebook, so don’t expect a timely response unless it’s an emergency. And don’t take it personally.) My family has a baby shower planned for Sunday, so that will be fun and horrifying as people will no doubt want to take my picture. I may also have to put a sign on my shirt that says DO NOT TOUCH OR LOSE A LIMB. Because that could be an awkward situation.
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